We are animals. As much as you don't want to hear it, we are classified as such. We need air to breathe, and we need to feed off of other organisms to live. We leech off other people, and we leech off of their emotions. We desperately try to protect those that we love. It's human nature. We live and talk and shoot the bull and what happens? We go home, tired, wanting something more. Of course this is impossible, as there is nothing more to human life than negligence. Nobody knows each other deeply because whether you want to hear it or not, we are constantly changing. To say that one has a fixed personality is absurd. We change based on our environment. We cry because something has gone wrong. We get angry because someone said something bad about a friend. It isn't really a direct hatred towards the person in general, it's more like trying to comfort the person they hurt. I recorded this of course, in that goddamn black journal of mine.

Why are we depressed? It's not because we're well nourished or because we have some fancy toys and a nice house. It's because our minds are distraught. We struggle with people and problems and fucking EMOTIONS that we just can't deal with sometimes. Our minds are controlling us. Of course one can be seriously depressed because they are malnourished or physically abused. However it is not the physical concrete action that disturbs us, it's our mental stress capacity about to explode. Why do people want relationships? Because they are lonely, and they feel if they have someone to hold or to be intimate with, some of that stress will alleviate from their souls.

This is why right after a relationship we try to rebound with another relationship. So that we can fill the void of having no one there to hold. No one there to talk to. So we can stop being alone for a brief period of time. Of course this doesn't work for a long time as the other person begins to realize tey're just being used for this one purpose; as a healing factor for one side, everything being unilateral.